Tuesday, April 10, 2012

I have a confession....

I have a confession.  This morning I am having some serious struggles.  Questioning. Doubting.  Seeking.  Praying. Trusting. A few days ago, I checked FaceBook, saw a post from a good missionary friend serving in Togo, and this is what I read:
"Tuesday evening 11:30 p.m while we were sleeping, I got stung by a scorpion 3 times. It woke me up with a sting to the inside of my left hand, but before I knew what was happening it got me again. I threw it and it landed on my bellie and stung me again, then I got it off, but I could not find it, and did not want to be in bed or step on it, and finally found it by the wall. John was asking me what was wrong, and before I even seen it I told him it was a scorpion. He told me to kill it with my shoe, which I did. John got on the internet to see what to do. Isn't much you can do. I was in intense pain for 24 hours, IBP and Tyn. every 2 hours and ice on it, just helped enough so I could stand it. At 2:00 a.m. this morning the pain finally left. Thank you Lord. I have been drinking lots of water to get the poison out."
I have to be honest, this terrifies me...not for myself, but for my children, my babies.  My biggest hesistancy in returning to Togo has been the kids.  I know they are not really my own...the Lord has simply entrusted them to me for a short while.  They are His.  However, the Devil knows my weakness (my children) and has sought to plague me with fear and doubt since I read this.  BUT I will not give him the victory.  The Lord has called us to Togo and we will NOT be distracted from doing the will of God for our family.   The perfect place for my children....the safest place for my children...the best place for my children is in the very center of God's will.  That is easy to say, but the Lord is putting me to the test.  Can I live what I claim?  I claim to trust Him in all things.  Can I live what I say?  I say I will go where ever He calls us.  Can I give what I say I will give?  I say I will give everything for Him.  No, I can not.  But He can accomplish it in me.
Commit thy way unto the LORD; trust also in him; and he shall bring it to pass. Psalm 37:5


  1. Tabitha,
    I will definitely be praying for you and your family as your prepare to minister in Togo again. Your babies are so cute!
    Grace and peace,

  2. Tabitha,
    Missionary kids are the best! You are giving your kids the best life possible by providing perspective into their world. Scorpion stings will pass. Malaria is treatable. But being selfish and closed-minded has no cure. Your kids will be wonderful people someday because you raised them overseas! Trust me! I've taught hundreds of MKs!
    Best of Luck in France! If you get bored, good Jet2. For $100 you could fly round trip to England and visit my brother-in-law!


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